What did Newton ask the apple? Too much for you? Yes, me too!! School has started for both Oliver and I. I actually started two weeks before Oliver, so our household has been crazy between me studying, paying attention to a three year old, and keeping our house in some kind of order. But luckily for myself and Oliver, Jonathan has taken over parenting duty part time so I could study and Oliver some TLC. What a dad, and husband!!!
The first week of school I tend to get a little anxious and question myself: am I doing the right thing, am I ignoring my child, is this all worth it? It is, I know that. But the guilt is hard, very hard. I feel it most when Oliver runs up to me and says “hug me mama” like he has not seen me for days even though it has been two hours. Or when Jonathan texts me a picture of them out having a good ol’ time makes me miss him most, the guilt the guilt the guilt, it is heavy. I am doing this for myself, for my family. I want Oliver to know how important education is. I did not take my education serious when I was young and never knew what direction I wanted to go in. I see that so much today with young adults in school. What pressure, to make a huge life decision for a career as a young adult. I see the work load and it is hard, hard for me and hard for an 19 year old with no job or a job and being a full time student.
I have realized the time I have with Oliver is so precious, not that I did not before it is just different. He will be three one time in his life. So while I am not doing school work I have been making it a priority to not touch my computer or phone while I am with him and just absorb him to pieces. Unless I am taking a picture to document the time spent. So far in the last two weeks we had a tea party outside in our yard, made an apple tart, and ran around the gardens at Descanso like wild animals while letting him lead the way. This week we are going to see a movie about Robinson Crusoe. There is something really special about his age now. Maybe it is because we can talk more and I can ask him about his day. Who he played with, what he liked best about his day at school, or what new foods he tried that day. They are just like you and I, more than we realize and it is such an amazing thing to witness your child becoming a little adult (even though he is three) they understand so much more than we give them credit for.
- 5 apples
- 1 1/4 cup all purpose flour
- 1 stick salted butter plus 4 tablespoons for topping
- 1/8-1/4 cup ice cold water
- 1/4 cup white sugar
- 1 teaspoon cinnamon
- 1/4 teaspoon ground clove
- 1/2 lemon
- For the dough you will want to use a Cuisinart. Add flour butter in cubes. Pulse. Slowly add cold water. Pulse. Pour out and pat together. Put dough in plastic wrap in frig for about 30-60 minutes. Or until very hard and cold.
- Peel apples and mandolin 1/4 inch think. Cut in half. So they are about two inches wide. Place in a bowl. Squeeze half a lemon over apples. Sprinkle sugar, cinnamon and clove over apples and place aside.
- Preheat oven 350. Role out dough into pie tart. Place in freezer for 10 minutes.
- Take out dough tart and line with pie weights (beans, weights) bake for 15 minutes.
- take out dough from oven and cool
- Next line the dough with apples any direction you would like. I wanted to make my have a pattern. Top with salted butter cubes. Bake for 45 minutes or until apples look somewhat browned as does the crust.
- Eat, top with cream or ice cream, or plain. I prefer plain. Enjoy!!!